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I can't sleep.

Journal Entry: Mon Nov 16, 2009, 9:35 AM


And I don't know why.

Probably I'm overreacting, but every time I close my eyes to sleep, I feel like I'm giving up on my life. Like I'm going to be consumed by death when I sleep. A pseudo-death, at least. And I'm scared.

I've had a fear of dying ever since I was young. I don't want to lose my memories. I don't want to lose the ability to feel. I don't want to lose my life and everything I've worked for. That's why I hate death. I hate it with a passion.

And when I sleep, as I've stated above, I have this thinking that I'll die in my sleep. I, at least, want to know that I'm dying. Not just to sleep and die just like that.

I know I'm weird. XDD It's 1:34 AM now and I'm fearful.

Ah well. Goodnight.

  • Mood: Distressed

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:iconsashikorosu:
Hey, thanks for the watch :D

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:icondeathbyzaleth:
No problem! XD

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You're welcome :P

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You're picture is tripping me out lol. O-O
:icondeathbyzaleth:
LOL, I suppose that's a.. good thing?! LOL

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I'm not sure...it's still freaking me out lol. :D
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HI U

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NO U

I mean.. hi 8D

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WUT

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